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cracking my head.......

2010-04-25T09:15:00.000-07:00

currently , im studying my brainsss off i wont let it rest until i get everything in but its suffering :(... its like my head is being smashed by a hammer, i cant get anything in!!! ARGHHHH!!!, then the sound is like * pak pak pak* * ah ah ah* pain pain....im now in old town white coffee studying and i have alot more to do ... i have the best bf in the world, although it passed his bedtime, but he is still sitting here with me supporting me mentally. He had gone through with me alot no matter ups or down, he is like the sun and moon rising up and setting down...

WHAT AM I DOING BLOGGING??

everyone needs a break..thats why.......:P

alrite peeps.......im back to my studies

stay tune for more ;)

and social butterfly, its the best blog ever that came back alive!! teeheee XD

A comeback!!

2010-04-25T00:14:00.000-07:00

hi im blogging again...sorry i neglected this blog for so long cause i went to korea after a long and tiring journey,i finally found my one true love jung li siong. it all started when i arrive at the air port and i saw him rushing to the exit door number 14 and thats where im heading. and so he bumped into me and i fell down. Injured, he made bruises on my knee. He was so kind that he carried me to the seatings and massage on it..as i said he was rushing, we exchanged number and told me if it still hurt call him and he will bring me to the hospital to check-up. After 2 days, to my surprise he called me and wants to repay me by taking me on a date, agreed i said and happily i went. he brought me to a candlelight dinner. Amazed he sent me flowers the following day and kept me in suspense for the next few days. he didnt call me:( i was sad.. so i called him and he told me he was busy with his FORBES MAGAZINE photoshoot.. he sincerly apologize by giving me a castle with my fav car...latest, limited and there's only 1 in the world MINI COOPER TURBO X ;) i was overjoyed and i couldnt sleep for 3 days, how stupid i am...:p. we started smsing each other and to the point we got together as i asked him to be my retarded boyfriend cuase i thought something is gonna happen to me..i know he is the one i love cause .... he is the sweetest guy on earth.. he made me feel like a queen and he is my joker that made me laugh all the time, even when times are bad he will still comfort me. he is so charming and retarded but ' u still love me rite?' .eventhough so, he thinks he is very strong in drinking alcohol. but..... the truth is, when he dies, he kicks stuff and pee everywhere like his nickname....GOOFY... muahahaha thats how we got together...and so the journey continuess...there will be more to come. so..people come and visit our blog often there will be alot of interesting stuff to seee!!! :D teeeheeee XD

goofy and akipanda.

FYI, i will win RAISA's blog :D teehee

life

2009-11-11T00:01:00.000-08:00

life... is like a sour candy.... it can be so sour and make u feel like spitting it out.. but then when u continue eating the candy, it gradually become sweet and then.... u r happy u ate it.... sometimes.. life is so tough, that u wish that u were never born.. but then... something may happen and everything is like prefect in ur image...and u r happy that u were given the chance to experience it...

heart being hurt and broken... can't be mend can't be heal..

the scar will always be there reminding u about it...

but then u learn from it and move on.. with many scars... but ur happy...

is it half empty or full?

OMGH!!!

2009-11-09T21:11:00.000-08:00

OMGH!!! i didn't blog for 1 month plus!!! hahahahaha~ sorry... was having finals and shit... anyway... i am very determine to get my hands on my own business and then.... gotta get the show going...!! and the lion king... rawr...!! gotta be prepared for the bruises and the mental stress out!!

went back to modeling.... it is so different!!!! hahaha~ and i am loving it all over again, hehe~ beside da.... i need cash to get started on wat i want to do... haiz... and i am desperate to get an ipod shuffle!!!!!!!! rawr.... hahaha

and mickey mouse.... if ya reading this.... po go ship po yo....!!

should i sob or just smile and walk away

2009-09-23T04:11:00.000-07:00

were close, but now i think v r drifted way apart..

guess time is changing everything,

even people ourselves,

hope the best for you,

my bfriend.

lay back and relax

2009-09-22T23:23:00.000-07:00

holidays is in malaysia right now... it is hari raya, hehe~ people who are working only get 2 day, but v~~ the students have one week!! muahahahaha!

i love holidays.....

i can lay back and relax....

and get fat...^^

bring down the rain

2009-09-18T07:50:00.000-07:00

bring down the rain,

as i look at to the sky,

bring down the rain,

as i feel every drops of it,

bring down the rain,

as i squeeze my eyes shut,

bring down the rain,

as i spread out my hand,

bring down the rain,

as i smile,

and

start feeling the burden taken away from me.

friends are really important in life.... even if you didn't keep in touch, always remember that when a friend need you, always and always be there... no matter how busy you are, because... there will be a day, when you need someone to lean on.. and all there is, is air... make the air warm... by having someone next to you for you to lean on..

i am always here eventhough you may think i am gone...:)

broken hearted girl

2009-09-13T06:38:00.000-07:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6v8bSHlZIyU

Youre everything I thought you never were
And nothing like I thought you couldve been
But still you live inside of me
So tell me how is that?

Youre the only one I wish I could forget
The only one Id love to not forgive
And though you break my heart, youre the only one
And though there are times when I hate you
Cause I cant erase
The times that you hurt me
And put tears on my face
And even now while I hate you
It pains me to sayI know
Ill be there at the end of the day

I dont wanna be without you babe
I dont want a broken heart
Dont wanna take a breath with out you babe
I dont wanna play that partI know that I love you
But let me just say
I dont want to love you in no kind of way no no
I dont want a broken heart
And I dont wanna play the broken-hearted girl
No...NoNo broken-hearted girl
Im no broken-hearted girl

Something that I feel I need to say
But up to now Ive always been afraid
That you would never come around
And still I want to put this out
You say youve got the most respect for me
But sometimes I feel youre not deserving me
And still youre in my heart
But youre the only one and yes

There are times when I hate you
But I dont complain
Cause Ive been afraid that you would've walk away
Oh but now I dont hate you
Im happy to say
That I will be there at the end of the day

I dont wanna be without you babe
I dont want a broken heart
Dont wanna take breath with out you babe
I dont wanna play that part
I know that I love you
But let me just say
I dont want to love you in no kind of way no no
I dont want a broken heart
And I dont wanna play the broken-hearted girl...
NoNoNo broken-hearted girl

Now Im at a place
I thought Id never beOooo
Im living in a world thats all about you and meyeah
Ain't gotta be afraid my broken heart is free
To spread my wings and fly awayAway
With you yeah yeah yeah, ohh ohh ohh

I dont wanna be without my baby
I dont wanna a broken heart
Dont want to take a breath with out my baby
I dont wanna play that part
I know that I love you
But let me just sayI dont want to love you in no kind of way..
No..No
I dont want a broken heart
I dont wanna play the broken-hearted girl..No..No..
No broken-hearted girl
Broken-hearted girl
Nono No broken-hearted girl
No broken-hearted girl

copyright: beyonce...

i can relate to this song...:)

2009-09-13T05:59:00.000-07:00

it is such an unorganized week.... i don't like being so messed up and not knowing what i am gonna do next...

school timetable: is good
dancing timetable: is good...
musical timetable: haiz... not organized sometimes...:P
another degree class timetable: not fixed at all
driving classes: not really fixed
colleges clubs timetable: so far... i don't know yet...
study time: can only be fixed when all those above are fixed
final exam dates: i only know the weeks... not the subject dates...

now.... i am sitting and being blur...

another thing.......
Jeg tror jeg som du, men jeg ønsker ikke å som noen ... fordi, jeg er ikke klar.

2009-09-12T09:50:00.000-07:00

if i open up to you,

it means i am starting to trust you

specially for you

2009-09-11T08:19:00.000-07:00

when it rains,

and i am wearing my slippers,

i can't help but think about you~

and i miss you~

on the day i thought about you

2009-09-10T08:09:00.000-07:00

class representative...=.=.... of calculus.... i need more alertness in the class... trying not 2 doze off n drop on de table...

today is ricky's scene... cough cough..mr. ariel.... i hope da role is for you~ it totally suits you... tailor made for you my darling~

and and and... tallie weirdo blurrie niney.... i am bored and good luck for tomorrow exams... don't go and milk de dead cow anymore...!!!

AND I SHALL BE CALLED

WITH

JAPANESE NAME HERE

AKI!!

the past, the present and the future

2009-09-09T08:17:00.000-07:00

ok here goes....

i stopped dancing in january cuz of some personal issues and my o level exams were coming sooner than i thought...

for those who do not know, my passion all along was dancing latin professionally and all others that come along in my life..

my life schedule was... school in the morning.. in the afternoon till evening around 8 was intensive training for latin dance... cuz i do latin dancing competitively.. and after that.. i go home and study and msning and then have a goodnight sleep... i had been doing this for almost 2 years.. and i was doing all this with joy.

but all these changed drasticly in this year... i stopped all my dancing activities completely... at that point of time, a lot is going through my brain... the best way 2 describe it is, i met de dead end and i do not know whether to turn right or left... at that same time, i joined another church... a church da i would say... is full of life with jesus.. befor that, i never know that a person at my age(17) can also be so full of gospel and still be proud of it...but i didn't go to church after de 1st 2 service.... i need to focuz in my studies... n one thing... i wasn't a smiley person anymore.. i get agitated and frustrated easily.. da is a big change in my appearance cuz i am a very cheerful person i would say..

in jan.. i was facing troubles wif my schedules... i felt the big gap.. i was free and i tried to use the time 2 study but m brain was back to the de studio learning the new techniques and all those stuffs... i creid nearly everyday cuz i just can't stand the burden of everything.. i couldn't think, i was devastated..

i got better after jan for 6 months.. but deep down under i know i am still being shadowed by my past. i was still the same for my o levels, i couldn't concentrate but i manage to hang on.

the miracle happened after my o levels. i went back to church and was paying attention in church... and suddenly pastor read something from david atkinson... this was wat was read...

"Let the last year goes into the silent limbo of the past.

Let it go. for it's imperfect, and thank GOD,

that it can go"

DAVID ATKINSON

at da moment, it hit me.. yeah!! i can... i am a child of god... amen!! and i can see myself in the future being happy and filled with the gospel of god.. the next day, my dad told me, there is a glow on my face and i am smiling...

that is not the end!!

i did not went back t dance right after that, i said to myself, that God will set the timing for me...

on 5th of september, one of my friend was having a farewell dance as she is a national dancer. she invited me to go... but i hesitated, even wif my parents cold approval, i still hesitated to go back and step into the dance world once again.

i really think God show you the way in life... for God already planned ur life, even before we were even borned... i am not a consistent attendance in my youth church. but on da particular day, i decided to go.. and they were talking bout fear... and how God helps you to face your fear. and during my cell group, they were talking bout choices and path of life that god had decided... ur life is in your hand, but God gives you choices.. whether to follow the path that he decided for you, or you just go into the dark side... i was really lost, i couldn't make up my mind whether to go or not for da farewell party. i went home and just kneel down and started to pray... just kept on going and going, until that moment i felt absolute peace and a thought in my head that says...GO. i just told the Lord, may everything be in ur grace.

i went there with confidence and i thank God for bringing me there, for in that particular studio, everyone looks happy to see me and wanted me to even start dancing again...

now... i am doing ballroom group class... and starting everything step by step again... but wat was trully amazing is da.. God took my burden away... and i praise him for everything He has done in my life.. amen...

~aki~

COSLINE EXFOLIATION SLEEPING MASK - GRAPE

2009-07-11T10:08:00.000-07:00

my 1st review on the stuffs that i had tried, hope that it is a good one...

as i had said, i really adore koreans stuffs. so most of my skincare products are from korea... haha~ i am asian... haha~ cuz i am mixed of chinese, korean and japanese... so i really adore everything from this countries, mostly korea's products... eventhough so, i can only speak mandarin, english, malay and a slight bit of korean, since i practically live my whole life in malaysia. hehe~

back 2 the review. my skin type is combination skin if normal and oily skin. 4 me it is very hard 2 find the perfect mask.. as some mask leave my skin feeling oily after awhile.

COSLINE EXFOLIATION SLEEPING MASK - GRAPE

description- benefits both nourishes and moistures your skin; therfore, keeping it delicate and radiant look. this sleeping pack does not need to remove or wash off after spread over your skin.

grape seed extract is well known as a natural skin purifier that will help remove dead skin, helps deep clean, tighten and refine your skin.

putting it on was easy, it has a light creamy texture and when it is applied on the face, it actually felt just like a moisturizer but thicker... haha~ it has a nice and soothing smell of grape..

after 5 mins of applying it, u can start feeling the firming of the face and in the next morning, after rinsing it off, my skin felt like a baby's.. it was da good... my skin felt smoother, firmer and definitely much much radiant

i highly recommend it and the price is consider cheap, i bought it for RM 38.90. and i really like it cuz it is hassle free, apply it on your face and then go to sleep. on the next day just rinse it off, as simple as da. hahaha

this is definitely one of my HG now~ anyway, hope this helps.

the first step...

2009-07-09T10:47:00.000-07:00

to be more precise... i actually thought of this yesterday, but only had the initiative to write it down today...

"if a right-handed person wishes to eat wih her left hand,

they must practise.

if they do not, the right hand comes out instinctively.

only with practise through blood sweat and tears,

can the person eat naturally with their left hand.

if you are nervous, then practise

WE MUST MASTER OURSELVES.

if i sleep, i may be able to dream.

but if i do not sleep, i can 'realise my dream'"

this phrase really motivates me today... because i was actually having a sore pain on my knee... and i had a dance rehearsal at night.. i just calm myself and start thinking... while everyone is giving their best for this production, why don't i do the same... with the same thought, i went to the rehearsal, and honestly i didn't feel any pain for the whole 2 hours... it was so much fun.

do everything wholeheartedly and with an eager heart, it will erase all sadness, tiredness, or pain when everyone is is putting in effort for the same goal..

i will never rest. AND make my dreams come true...!! so can u! ^.^

every movement has a story behind it, i think most of the people would nknow this... just like singing, a simple sentence can bring out different meanings when sang in different genres. dancing is the same. the control and the angling of each movements bring a different view altogether.. like this picture above, the lady is simply kneeling down, but if i put it into my imagination and interprete it.. it is like a gal, trying to reach out for something da is unreachable in the sky...

"...it is a communication between souls...."

-martha graham

the starting point of a journey....

2009-07-08T10:42:00.000-07:00

i had been going through a lot of blogs... and honestly i admire most of it.. they spent a lot of time making it and it was so fun to just read through all of them and learn plus enjoy each and every humours and differences...

personally, i am not such a consistence person... hmm... how should i put it... ok! for example... i will blog everyday from today, but once i get busy with all my other activities... i won't blog until the next time i touch my computer... yea... i guess that is me...

i go through blogs da explains a lot about makeup... being an asian, i find fuzkittie's blog really really useful for me... she is so kind to make reviews on all the products da she bought... honestly i don't noe her personally, but i love her tutorials and everything to pieces... i first found her on youtube... she is so good.... hahaha... really love her... she help me a lot in realising da my techniques for makeups was wrong.... i was scared da i will aged faster... so happy i found her...

uh-hmm.... gomen... hahaha~ this is one of my two besties... hehehe~ it is actually her who kinda motivates me into making this blog... hahaha... her name is miss. sb... love her to bits....

i have this feeling... i don't noe how to explain... u know the feeling of being cheeky and evil and doing something stupid to someone... and then later the feeling of guilt and fear crept slowly into your bones and you will get this chill... i think when she reads my blog... and see her picture here.... i am screwed...!! but who cares...!! she is gorgeous rite?? i feel like i am promoting her for sales now... HAHAHAHAHA!!

picture: stolen from miss. sb's phone...( hehehe)

my other bestie!!! hehehe~ she is another gorgeous girl.... her name is miss. icyQ... hahahaha~ i know she is pretty...

i feel like i am very lucky to have to gorgeous ladies as my best friends.... hahaha~

remember the feeling that i was talking about earlier?? i noe for sure that when miss. icyQ read my blog... i am definitely gonna get kill... hahaha~ but think of the present now and the future later

picture: stolen from miss.icyQ?( i am clueless as well)

the reason y introduce my besties... is that... u will be seeing a lot of them here...

last, but not least... i am a girl who is passionate about everything that i can get my hands on it... i am very involve into musics... i think i will be talking a lot about it too... down the blog road... hehehe~other stuffs... such as makeup, fashion... i am more to the asian style... especially adore the korean style...

actually, i don't really know what i can say more bout myself...
but lets see as i start this journey of blogging... shall we? :)